school assignment

I am Cole (after)

I am healing and bewildered.
I wonder if I will ever be forgiven.
I hear Peter calling me, willing me to come to his aid.
I see Garvey pull up in his boat, boasting of how far I’ve come.
I want to get better, to please Garvey in his expectations for me, to be free.
I am healing and bewildered.

I pretend that I don’t want to soak in icy water or carry a twenty pound rock.
I feel my anger lifting away from me.
I touch the rough bark of the tree, the one whose trunk leans away from me no matter which way I turn.
I worry about the left end of the stick; it’s in the back of my mind but never out of reach.
I cry when I think of what I did to Peter and how much I regret it.
I am healing and bewildered.

I understand that I was wrong in my actions and my beliefs, and that consequences are always there, no matter how bad they may be.
I say that it won’t happen again (it won’t), that I’m sorry (I am), and that I am healing from the inside out.
I dream of helping others as Garvey has helped me.
I try my best not to let my anger get the best of me.
I hope to make a difference and to see the spirit bear, touch the bear, breathe the bear, and to save it like saved me.
I am healing and bewildered.

a poem i wrote as an assignment for english:

I am Cole (before)

I am cold and unforgiving.
I wonder what tomorrow brings- break-ins, beatings, or juvie.
I hear the whimpering of those who fear me.
I see them cowering in the hall.
I want them to know fear as I have known fear.
I am cold and unforgiving.

I pretend that I fear nothing, no one, not a thing.
I feel anger towards the world and everyone, everything in it.
I touch my father’s belt, making stripes upon my back.
I worry about getting caught or getting sent to jail.
I cry silently so no one hears, alone so no one sees.
I am cold and unforgiving.

I understand that I’m mean, angry and out-of-control.
I say that it won’t happen again… I know that it will.
I dream of living for today, not tomorrow’s satisfaction.
I try to do nothing, usually I succeed.
I hope for nothing because I get nothing.
I am cold and unforgiving.

A Love Like No Other
The wind,
The rain,
The lightning,
The thunder.
That’s what it felt like.
A storm.
There was no other description.
So wild and untamed.
A love like no other.
The excitement.
It tasted like a blade,
Bitter.
The electric feeling,
Shocking.
No other word to explain.
Clouds, enveloping the mountains.
In one word,
Beautiful.
It was the greatest feeling on earth.
The best thing in the world.

This Game We Call Life

She is a friend.

You are not.

She is loyal.

You are not.

I trust her.

I don’t trust you.

But both of you will live.

Life goes on.

It never stops.

Our life is like a never ending book.

It is being written as we speak.

It is important.

It will always be important.

You may not be my friend.

You may not be loyal.

I may not trust you.

But I care for you.

Because, whether I like it or not,

You are part of my life.

You have helped me get to where I am today.

You are just as important to this story as she is.

You didn’t kill me, you made me stronger.

Everyone is important in this game we call life.

Her eyes were as large as the moon,

And her tears sparkled like a starry sky,

Never had I seen a more beautiful person cry.

She was as elegant as the sea,

And as quiet as a brook,

Never had I seen a more forgiving look.

The whites of her eyes watery I saw

She mourned one long gone but not forgotten

And the stars gleamed in the two moons of the beaming sun

She will never be missed more than the night misses,

Day or the moon misses the sun,

But she brings all together,

And never in a million years,

Will I see a more beautiful person cry.

Leah <3

Copy Write 2009

The world can be a cruel place
Sometimes it smacks us in the face
It would be nice if I could erase
All of the pain connected with this place

Most of us have a hard time showing how we feel
Even when we are sharing a meal
We keep ourselves isolated with a strong seal
When we should be expressing how we truly feel

We put each other down
By spreading the word around town
And when we think we have the crown
Another thing brings us down

Most people always want more
They buy and buy until they are poor
And even when they’ve eaten the apple to the core
They are still hungry for more

Many of us carry a heavy load
Our lives have become a complicated code
And when we try a different mode
Our shoulders carry an even heavier load

When people turn cold
While looking for that pot of gold
No one does what they are told
And the world becomes dark and cold

There are things that we cannot save
In this cold and dark cave
And yet our path we still must pave
But first, our time we must save

We all have a different shade
And yet we have all paid
A debt that all of us have made
From which we can’t hide in the world’s shade

Several of these words go deep
But most of them we will not keep
For our minds won’t let them seep
Our minds no longer are that deep

Most people have gone blind
Oblivious to what’s happening in their mind
Which makes us all one of a kind
But still, we are all blind

We are so caught up with material things
Like clothes and toys and diamond rings
Sometimes we have to pull some strings
Because we forgot the meaningful things

We swear and hit and make others cry
When we are in trouble, we lie
Soon I fear our hearts may die
And seeing this makes me cry

Paranoia and disease have spread
Just like peanut butter on a slice of bread
Can I trust you with that needle and thread?
Or will you chaos and disaster spread?

Everyone is trying to take the lead
Some cheat and don’t take the time to read
If we did, more of us would succeed
And then, maybe, we all could lead

Many of us often use the phrase "I love you"
But in past days, people would only say it after "I do"
The meaning has been lost in this corrupted slough
Because now everyone says "I love you" to you

We believe we are walking through a field of mines
Selfishness has broken our weak lines
From our neighbor we are hiding that pair of nines
And avoiding stepping on those planted mines

Someone once said, "Life is like a garden"
Let’s not take ones hearts and make them harden
Instead, when a mistake is made, give our pardon
So, I suggest you take a stroll through your garden.

Copy write 2009